Car 9

A fever

I can’t walk or talk

I became completely week

I love you

I want you

Please don’t cry

But show some love

I love you

I want you

I am week

I am tired

I am completely helpless

Please show some love

I beg you for some love

I know you can’t love me

But show a little amount

Even if it is very small amount

I will be satisfied by that

If you understood my love

That will be my greatest bliss

Background

I can feel the breadth

I can feel you

I see you on the background

Standing still on the canvas

Beauty (2012)

The dark curve which forms the border of your eyes

The circle which is filled by black colour which moves around

The area in-between which is filled by milk white

Your eye lashes which curves around

The whole area rests on your fair skin

Your eyebrows which is again dark

Then your curly hairs

Your nose which is compact and small

Your lips are Red Mountain

This is again hold on by red vessel

When you close your eyes while sleeping

The beauty of the world sleeps along with you

On your eyes

Call of death

Your beauty reminds me

There is an end to the world

You are crying

 But there is laughter in your face

Your heart is burning under fire

But your lips are smiling

There is love in each rise grains

Why the death calls me from behind

Is there any hope left?

Love became meaningless

Iam not a poet but

Your words are flowing like a poem

Is there any hope left?

I realize the world is meaningless

Cry

My sweet little sister

My beautiful little sister

You are the most valuable person,

 In my life

When I die, you should cry.

Death (2013)

Death is a journey through pain

Thus death is the most significant experience

Death gives meaning to life

Sometimes death becomes the only meaningful thing in life

Nobody knows what will happen after death

When life itself is uncertain,

What to speak about death

I am ashamed to say

But I am afraid of death

I see peoples die and it fills dread in me

I see peoples die without fear

I wonder how this happen

I came again

This world is a background for a love

You and I are the lovers

I loved you because I felt you wanted love

And this is your last chance to love somebody

I always want to fail in front of you

That is why I came again

After I knew you never loved me

My life has became a desert

I searched for happiness every where

But I couldn’t find it

Again I came to you

To beg for love

Don’t be afraid, Iam here for you

This opportunity will never come back

Let us die in love

Don’t listen to anybody

Nobody can guide you

Let the pain turn into happiness

Don’t be afraid

I love you

I know, nothing can stop you from loving me

Because I love you

Let nothing stop you

Don’t turn back

There is nothing to fear

I know you love me

Let our body be cut into pieces

And Iam sure that will happen

And it happens every second

Your love is killing me each second

But Iam afraid to tell you

But don’t be afraid

Don’t stop loving me

Why, what should we do in love?

There is nothing to be done

We don’t need to see

We don’t need to touch

We don’t need to do anything

But we can love

Let our love be blocked in mind

Let it torture us

But don’t stop loving me

I know you can love me

Let the age make us ugly

Let the situations make us cry

But the love will stand high

It will always be pure

Don’t think about anything

Everything will happen as it should

Dont be afraid

What is there to fear?

Now that we are trapped in love

There is nothing to think about but love

Don’t expect anything from love

Love will not give you anything

We will love for the sake of love

Never ending bliss.2009

Lifelosing its meaning

Happiness only remains.

The joy which can be felt on everything,

Which starts from my heart?

joy is filled in my head and thrown out of my body

it moves into the earth and filled in the whole universe.

The joy of love rises again

I can feel it every where

i feel continuous with whatever i see

The pleasure of sleeping slowly my eye lids get tired

i feel like sleeping though my mind is resting.

Nothing remains on life but never ending bliss.

Tensions creep up and the cells are dying,

Thedeath of animals remains unquestioned.

Life remains the same except everything changes into joy,

The joy of life becomes a question mark.

The difference always remain in life,

Happiness cannot be questioned ever.

The love for joy becomes incomplete without lust

Love for life becomes the greatest lust.

Emotions creep up in the darkness of fear

The love for life becomes the greatest lust.

The rise of heaven in the secret world of sea

I remain unquestioned

The rain is showering in the silence of being

Night is falling with great silence

i remain unquestioned,

Though my heart is crying

For the never ending love

Which only you can give.

Paintings

I know her body is made up of blood flesh and bones

But when I see her, I am not able to stop myself

 From doing her paintings continuously

self-realization.2011.

I wish you could forgive me one day

Forget that this world can be cruel

Please forgive the coward in me

Now I know I was only a thief

Who tried to steal your love?

Forgive me that I was influenced by your beauty

But I couldn’t find much beauty inside you

I never thought there could be anything inside you

My love was lust in disguise

You were beautiful and it was your only fault

I remember that cattle is killed for its body

I believe that I influenced you

I tried to influence you

But you didn’t show a sign of love, you are pure

We were tight lipped, our love was silent

I felt I don’t want you

But I was wrong

I always needed someone

I miss your love

at least your presence

I want you badly

ButI’m week

I remember you

Sometimes I feel guilty

For influencing you

For chasing you

You are a person of your own

Who ‘am I to influence you?

Who ‘am I to ask you to look at me, Look at my love?

I’ am nobody

I ‘am nobody to divert your attention

I’ am only a companion of yours

In the voyage of life.

I ‘am a companion of you like anybody else

I’ am not special

But you are special

Everybody wants you

Everybody needs your kind attention

Everybody seek your look

Everybody need’s your presence

You are special

You are beautiful

You influence others

Your face is special

Your smile is special

Everybody loves you

You are one of a kind

I loved you, I still love you, I will always love you

I don’t know why I love you

When you hate me so much

I know I will not get anything from you

I know you don’t even think about me

I love you; you are near to me, Dear to me

I know you are not able to love me

But it is OK, I love for myself

I believe in love, I feel there is something in it which will protect me

I feel there is something in beauty.

I realise you as a women and myselfas a man

What is more to it I don’t know

I know that you are beautiful

I also know that you don’t love me

I don’t think that my face is special

You can easily forget me.

I don’t think I have done the right thing

By trying to attract you

I could attract you to some extend

I don’t know if it is my success or failure

I wish you didn’t love me

Then I wouldn’t feel the pain feel now

You could have considered me as a moron

I was trying to break that image

I badly wanted your love

I could not even think of not attaining you

I felt you should also love me.

I wanted you very badly.

I could at least seek your attention

You knew that there is someone

Who wanted your attention?

Maybe you were not able to love me

But you knew there is someone who loves you.

You know I wanted you.

Even though you couldn’t love me

You knew there was somebody who loved you

I think you can’t be so cruel that you hate me.

I didn’t do anything to you except loving you

I was influenced by your beauty.

Your face is so simple and easy to draw

I will always draw your face.

I don’t find any other thing interesting to draw.

Even though you hate me so much.

I will always draw your face.

You never ever loved me, I ‘am afraid

But I always loved you

At least your love was not true love

You just found some attraction in me

I’ am afraid no girl ever loved me

It takes away some responsibility and adds an emptiness

I ‘am afraid even I ever loved any girl.

My love only gazed them

Over the top of their body

It was skin deep

I only dreamed about them

Nothing seriously happened

It is true my love for you was different

In one way

No other girl gave me satisfaction in love

Your love also made song feel sweet

Your love made Novel and Film seem beautiful

But I was afraid; I was not interested in the rewards of love

But I wanted you, it was true

I loved you.

self-realization.2011.

I wish you could forgive me one day

Forget that this world can be cruel

Please forgive the coward in me

Now I know I was only a thief

Who tried to steal your love?

Forgive me that I was influenced by your beauty

But I couldn’t find much beauty inside you

I never thought there could be anything inside you

My love was lust in disguise

You were beautiful and it was your only fault

I remember that cattle is killed for its body

I believe that I influenced you

I tried to influence you

But you didn’t show a sign of love, you are pure

We were tight lipped, our love was silent

I felt I don’t want you

But I was wrong

I always needed someone

I miss your love

at least your presence

I want you badly

ButI’m week

I remember you

Sometimes I feel guilty

For influencing you

For chasing you

You are a person of your own

Who ‘am I to influence you?

Who ‘am I to ask you to look at me, Look at my love?

I’ am nobody

I ‘am nobody to divert your attention

I’ am only a companion of yours

In the voyage of life.

I ‘am a companion of you like anybody else

I’ am not special

But you are special

Everybody wants you

Everybody needs your kind attention

Everybody seek your look

Everybody need’s your presence

You are special

You are beautiful

You influence others

Your face is special

Your smile is special

Everybody loves you

You are one of a kind

I loved you, I still love you, I will always love you

I don’t know why I love you

When you hate me so much

I know I will not get anything from you

I know you don’t even think about me

I love you; you are near to me, Dear to me

I know you are not able to love me

But it is OK, I love for myself

I believe in love, I feel there is something in it which will protect me

I feel there is something in beauty.

I realise you as a women and myselfas a man

What is more to it I don’t know

I know that you are beautiful

I also know that you don’t love me

I don’t think that my face is special

You can easily forget me.

I don’t think I have done the right thing

By trying to attract you

I could attract you to some extend

I don’t know if it is my success or failure

I wish you didn’t love me

Then I wouldn’t feel the pain feel now

You could have considered me as a moron

I was trying to break that image

I badly wanted your love

I could not even think of not attaining you

I felt you should also love me.

I wanted you very badly.

I could at least seek your attention

You knew that there is someone

Who wanted your attention?

Maybe you were not able to love me

But you knew there is someone who loves you.

You know I wanted you.

Even though you couldn’t love me

You knew there was somebody who loved you

I think you can’t be so cruel that you hate me.

I didn’t do anything to you except loving you

I was influenced by your beauty.

Your face is so simple and easy to draw

I will always draw your face.

I don’t find any other thing interesting to draw.

Even though you hate me so much.

I will always draw your face.

You never ever loved me, I ‘am afraid

But I always loved you

At least your love was not true love

You just found some attraction in me

I’ am afraid no girl ever loved me

It takes away some responsibility and adds an emptiness

I ‘am afraid even I ever loved any girl.

My love only gazed them

Over the top of their body

It was skin deep

I only dreamed about them

Nothing seriously happened

It is true my love for you was different

In one way

No other girl gave me satisfaction in love

Your love also made song feel sweet

Your love made Novel and Film seem beautiful

But I was afraid; I was not interested in the rewards of love

But I wanted you, it was true

I loved you.

self-realization.2011.

I wish you could forgive me one day

Forget that this world can be cruel

Please forgive the coward in me

Now I know I was only a thief

Who tried to steal your love?

Forgive me that I was influenced by your beauty

But I couldn’t find much beauty inside you

I never thought there could be anything inside you

My love was lust in disguise

You were beautiful and it was your only fault

I remember that cattle is killed for its body

I believe that I influenced you

I tried to influence you

But you didn’t show a sign of love, you are pure

We were tight lipped, our love was silent

I felt I don’t want you

But I was wrong

I always needed someone

I miss your love

at least your presence

I want you badly

ButI’m week

I remember you

Sometimes I feel guilty

For influencing you

For chasing you

You are a person of your own

Who ‘am I to influence you?

Who ‘am I to ask you to look at me, Look at my love?

I’ am nobody

I ‘am nobody to divert your attention

I’ am only a companion of yours

In the voyage of life.

I ‘am a companion of you like anybody else

I’ am not special

But you are special

Everybody wants you

Everybody needs your kind attention

Everybody seek your look

Everybody need’s your presence

You are special

You are beautiful

You influence others

Your face is special

Your smile is special

Everybody loves you

You are one of a kind

I loved you, I still love you, I will always love you

I don’t know why I love you

When you hate me so much

I know I will not get anything from you

I know you don’t even think about me

I love you; you are near to me, Dear to me

I know you are not able to love me

But it is OK, I love for myself

I believe in love, I feel there is something in it which will protect me

I feel there is something in beauty.

I realise you as a women and myselfas a man

What is more to it I don’t know

I know that you are beautiful

I also know that you don’t love me

I don’t think that my face is special

You can easily forget me.

I don’t think I have done the right thing

By trying to attract you

I could attract you to some extend

I don’t know if it is my success or failure

I wish you didn’t love me

Then I wouldn’t feel the pain feel now

You could have considered me as a moron

I was trying to break that image

I badly wanted your love

I could not even think of not attaining you

I felt you should also love me.

I wanted you very badly.

I could at least seek your attention

You knew that there is someone

Who wanted your attention?

Maybe you were not able to love me

But you knew there is someone who loves you.

You know I wanted you.

Even though you couldn’t love me

You knew there was somebody who loved you

I think you can’t be so cruel that you hate me.

I didn’t do anything to you except loving you

I was influenced by your beauty.

Your face is so simple and easy to draw

I will always draw your face.

I don’t find any other thing interesting to draw.

Even though you hate me so much.

I will always draw your face.

You never ever loved me, I ‘am afraid

But I always loved you

At least your love was not true love

You just found some attraction in me

I’ am afraid no girl ever loved me

It takes away some responsibility and adds an emptiness

I ‘am afraid even I ever loved any girl.

My love only gazed them

Over the top of their body

It was skin deep

I only dreamed about them

Nothing seriously happened

It is true my love for you was different

In one way

No other girl gave me satisfaction in love

Your love also made song feel sweet

Your love made Novel and Film seem beautiful

But I was afraid; I was not interested in the rewards of love

But I wanted you, it was true

I loved you.